things are starting to not be looking up!!!

weeeellllll!!!! not so good now,i think i may have pushed her away by trying to pull her in,it seems that the harder i try the more things go wrong for me,i try to joke it comes out wrong, i try to say something i say it wrong, its not her its me i really cant seem to do anything right...i mean why not be me... it has to be someone,everyone i know is doing fine in yours and i cant even talk right to get the feelings i know are in there, out so she can see them.......i'll be truthful, i really dont have a clue what the hell im doing,im 28 years old and have only been with 2 women, and only had sex with one of them( got a little girl to prove it) but when it comes to this girl, i feel something more but i cant seem to get it out, i dont know maybe there is something wrong with me,i did kill the marriage,i could have not been the way i was, i could have sat there in bed well she read her books doing nothing,you know what i know what it is, im a bump on a log, i dont like going to bars, i dont go to clubs,im not much of a drinker( not that you could tell for the past few nites),....god damn it.. i cant even think straight...what the hell is wrong with me? i finely get my life back in order and every thing in my head go's to shit........

sorry guys.. had to do my rant.. and you guys are the only ones that seem to get what i say ....... most of the time anyways... dont weary ill pull my self up again, guy like me cant stay down to long, thats when the demon's come out

You said it...
WOMEN!
One thing I learned, ya can't change who they are, and you DON'T want to try. Take your time, slow down, if it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be. Just do for you, right now. Things will come around

thanks man....yep it done, we broke up this morning...she wants to be friends again, thats fine and all i still want to be her friend as wellplus she said maybe we can pick back up later on..(not her words but you know) any ways single...AGAIN...

Sometimes it's better that way, lol.
A lot of things won't make sense to you now, but give it time.

Man I've been in your same position. Fighting for custody of my daughter and being in the hole with bills. I dug myself out of that hole and got my daughter. Then crappy relationships where I just didn't feel like "me". I acted like they wanted me to but when I was myself they made me feel stupid. I'm also a bump on a log. No clubs, no bars, and I'm only a social drinker on holidays and special occasions. My best advice ill say is to get yourself straight and love your daughter. I quit looking and found a girl almost 4 years ago. First thing I did was to be myself around her. That way she really knew me at first and if that scared her away then so be it. She stuck around and we had a lot in common. She didn't go out to bars or clubs and she liked my truck. She also took real good care of my daughter and they got along really well Let's fast forward to today....we are getting married at 3. Things will fall into place when you aren't looking for it. Be yourself and the one will find you man. And you know we here for ya. And me and you aren't too far away. I'm sure I may see you at layd out at the park next year or something.

thanks mikey..that makes me feel alot better

Just take some time and get your mind together. If I have learned from the guys on here, we may not know you but we are here for you in any way that we can. I talk with you on here more then any person and your always cool with me even if I ask something stupid you guys have a real answer even if its a dumb one. So hold it together and you will figure it out. Life is not ment to be easy, it has only a few guarentees. One you will die, two, its never going to be easy, and three you will get broken. All one can do is put themselves back together. I have faith in you man, just keep up you!! DRAG HARD!!!

holy crap.... see thats why i love this place you guys are the family i wish i had..i cant get help from my brothers, one is shallow as all get out and the other is weird..he dont care what they look like as long as they are smaller them him... i'll go ahead and say it..ya my friend, girl friend what ever you want to call it right now, is a little biger them the last one i had, but she is nice, sweet, loving, funny as hell and has one hell of temper..shhs..lol..red head and portoricain...wow right..so far she says she like the way i am and the things i do..i.e. my truck, going to shows,things like that,but...theres one prob...and im beleaving it may be the piece that kills it for me...shes a pill popper and a pothead....i did get her to stop the pills for a bit but then a friend come back in town and she started right back up.....oh well like iv been told many many times now...theres more fish in the sea...lol...anyways thanks guys you are the coolest wish i could meet you in person

yea man there are more dont get involved with a pill popper pots ok but no pills its a bad road....you cant be to fugly so you can get much better

youd date me todd...so i most look damn good...lol...jk