i gotta vent

nothing major but this hit to the head had me kinda loopy for awhile so thoughts have been in and out and not addin up right. SOMETHING FINALLY ADDED UP!!!! all this crap fell into place today after i came too at the hospital!

i quit drinkin to help a failing relationship. the problem was her tho. i drank just so i wouldn't hafta talk, tho she rarely listened. so i was drunk pretty much everyday. she called me an alky and shit like that but never listend to my side. i'll admit i like beer. beer tastes good, met alot of people that are now good friends cuz we stood at a party drinkin beer and b.s'n. she'd get pissed if i had one beer with dinner. you got a thick red steak, who the hell wants apple juice or ice water? you want a beer. you go to a redneck backwoods party, you dont take sprite, you take a case and raise hell around the fire.

course i didn't see she was a lying bitch. story after story that never added up but i was too busy ignoring them to realize they didnt' make sense. hot air balloons aint gonna fit on a 1 lane city street, you dont keep your job at McD's throwin food at customers, and you dont go to your dad's house on your birthday after you talked all day bout some guy you met at a carshow you went to alone after you told me you dont like going to carshows.

so yeah i saw her last week, she wanted to know bout my wreck. saw my eye, saw the swelling, sed she was glad i was ok.
not too be a dick, i asked what she was gittin into that weekend "oh i'm goin to a party and gittin drunk!"
"with who?"
"aaron"
"hell of a party with 2 people"
"oh a bunch of his friends are goin to his friends apartment. i dont know any of 'em but i just like gittin drunk"
"but you never wanted to party and drink with my friends. have fun lush."

glad she's gone. shoulda stayed single the first time i broke up with her last year. didn't wanna wait on me to git on my feet and git my life goin so found someone that already had.

man maybe another hit to the head and i'll git the balls to ask the new girl to be mine... doubt it.

ah bro,that's shitty,but she doesn't seem like much of a loss.

Wait a little with the new one,don't rush things. Get your head clear before you make up your mind.

I've been stressed out a lot lately,and been drinking a lot. Finally got drunk as a skunk this past weekend and called it quits for a while cuz I overdid myself. I'm a happy go lucky drunk,so that's why I do it. I don't get all sad and depressed or violent and angry when I drink. But drinking myself to the point of sickness it no way to deal with problems.

Get yourself mended up,clear your mind,spend some time with the girl and just go with the flow bro.

yeah thats what i'm plannin on. she just got out of a shitty relationship too. i guess everyguy she's been with has treated her like shit. she's amazed at how good i am to her even when i treat all my friends like shit (but they deserve it cuz they're stupid lol). sed she really enjoys how i treat her and that she's never been comfortable around anyone till me.

did warn a few of my friends if they treat her like shit when we come around or touch her innapropriatly (they have and she doesn't like it) i'm gonna hurt 'em.

i love bein a happy drunk! its so much fun. i hate depressed drunks. hahahaha wish i was drunk now. i'm just doped up on morphine, vicadin, and demeral lol

i'd have a drink for ya,but alcohol and i aren't talking right now.

even though the age old saying is "bros before hos",you gotta take care of your significant other first.